#28: Poem – Breaking up with a Friend in a One Page Letter

Two things really prompted this poem. One, I have started penpal-ing again over snail mail and the other was a conversation I had with a friend of mine who was worried that I was ghosting from that friendship. I don’t think I am, but it did make me think about how I would ever end a friendship. It’s not often something we think about but how would you approach it?

I also wrote this with the intent to perform it at our Pizza and Poetry nights in Cairns, hence the breaks.

Breaking up with a Friend in a One Page Letter

My Dearest Friend,

I know we haven’t spoken in a while.

The last time we did, all I left remembering was the

dark

silent

void

that lingered like the echoes of laughter we used to share at the bottom of our empty coffee cups.

Yours was full.

The inside joke that I hated computer technology and spelt it out in a six letter F word F.U.C.K.I.T.

“Ah fuck it!”.

(silence)

Those were the days. Do you remember?

I call you friend. I haven’t found another word to replace you. How a six letter F word could keep me laughing – F.R.I.E.N.D.

Now you remind me of who I no longer am. A six letter F word that I want to F.O.R.G.E.T. 

But reading comprehension was never your best suite. You liked Chemistry and Music, which only a friend would know.

So I’ll have to

break

it

down

for

you.

Our friendship was like gold. It was worth a lot.

Past tense.

I used to like heavy metal.

So I fade away. Into black.

Insert Metallica reference – Fade to Black.

Or from Black to White and moonwalk out of this.

I like Michael Jackson. R.I.P to this.

Now,

pointless conversations mean little, like the one about being lost at sea.

Like I’m drowning in this. Not drifting anymore. Drifting apart, unlike before.

‘Tis time. ‘Tis me. Not you. ‘Tis change. It is life.

“Ah fuck it.”

(silence, big sigh)

I am being vague as I get to the end of this page.  And I guess I just can’t find the words to say what it is I need to

say right now. 

But until then, 

until I do.

I guess I remain.

Your Dearest Friend,

Hanslee

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